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marshajorelly — Tue, 20 Oct 2009 10:37:02 +0000

Alicia Keys – Doesn’t Mean Anything [Official Video]

Not ready too make nice…

marshajorelly — Sat, 22 Aug 2009 16:01:51 +0000

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting

I’m through with doubt
There’s nothing left for me to figure out
I’ve paid a price
And I’ll keep paying

I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I know you said
Can’t you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it

I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I don’t mind sayin’
It’s a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they’d write me a letter
Sayin’ that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting

marshajorelly — Tue, 18 Aug 2009 19:42:17 +0000

Disney’s Friends For Change – Send It On

Got Dynamite by Demi Lovato

marshajorelly — Fri, 14 Aug 2009 14:46:02 +0000

I can’t take your hand and
lead you to the water
I can’t make you feel what you don’t feel but you know you wanna
find out how to crack me
Log in try to hack me

Underneath the surface
there’s so much you need to know
And you might feel like you’re drowning
but that’s what I need to let go

Tell me what you got to break down the walls
You just might need Dynamite
Tell me what you got to break down the walls
Kick senseless my defenses
Tell me what you’re gonna do
I need you to light the fuse
Tell me what you got to break down the walls
You just might need Dynamite

Got Dynamite?

I can’t paint this picture
just so you can hang it
I can’t wait for you to understand if you just don’t get it
find out how to crack me
Log in try to hack me

Underneath the surface
there’s so much you need to know
And you might feel that you’re drowning but that’s what I need
to let go

When the walls come crashing down
I hope you’re standing right in front of me
Where my past lies all around me
Cause all you need to save me is to intervene
and make the walls come crashing down….

Got Dynamite

God is in Control

marshajorelly — Mon, 10 Aug 2009 02:05:31 +0000

This is no time for fear
This is a time for faith and determination
Don’t lose the vision here
Carried away by emotion
Hold on to all that you hide in your heart
There is one thing that has always been true
It holds the world together

God is in control
We believe that His children will not be forsaken
God is in control
We will choose to remember and never be shaken
There is no power above or beside Him, we know
God is in control, oh God is in control

History marches on
There is a bottom line drawn across the ages
Culture can make its plan
Oh, but the line never changes
No matter how the deception may fly
There is one thing that has always been true
It will be true forever

He has never let you down
Why start to worry now?
He is still the Lord of all we see
And He is still the loving Father
Watching over you and me

watching over you…watching over me..
watching over every things..
watching over you..watching over me..
every little sparrow..every little things…

Dear God

marshajorelly — Fri, 07 Aug 2009 18:48:56 +0000

Dear God,

In this moment I seek your presence begging you for a miracle that seems impossible, yet in this moment I believe. I come to you on my knees with what’s left of my heart opened wide. I seek a miracle, am putting all my faith in you am giving all I have to you. Am holding on to you with all the strength that I have left.

I know that your beside me holding on to every tear that I cry in fact I can feel you. I’ve never been one to understand your proposes yet I know you’re in control of everything and everyone. Bad things happen to good people for some reason which I have yet to understand, and when things are great and everything seems perfect something happens just to test or faith.

I can’t lie to you since you know my deepest thoughts, I have to admit that sometimes I get mad at you cause things don’t happen the way I expect them too, I get frustrated cause this world is full of crap and am still waiting for my happy ending.

I worried so much about everyone around me it kills me to see them in pain. I feel hopeless so I pray because even if my world is upside down I know you’re in control, you are the only one capable of my miracle.

So in the mean time I’ll keep prying, waiting and believing because that’s all I can do. I pray for my parents, I pray that you guide them, help them make good decisions in life help them be better parents each day. I pray for my sisters, I pray for them more than I pray for anyone or anything, they are my life and if I had to sacrifice myself for anyone of them I would without even thinking about it, I never let them know am worried, I try to be better and brave for them, I stop living for their happiness.

God you are my world, my best friend, my everything. When the whole world forgets me or lets me down you stand beside me. You give my life meaning. I love you more than anyone can ever imagine.

Until my miracle I’ll wait and Pray!

AMEN!

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marshajorelly — Sat, 01 Aug 2009 18:21:35 +0000

I’m scared that I’m going to end up alone. I’m scared that I’m always going to be somebody’s friend, or sister, or confident, never quite somebody’s everything.

God damn you’re beautiful

marshajorelly — Fri, 24 Jul 2009 22:09:01 +0000

Chester See – God Damn You’re Beautiful (Official Music Video)

I’ll keep standing on the side…

marshajorelly — Thu, 23 Jul 2009 16:52:44 +0000

I had everything figured it out; at least I thought I did. I knew where I was going, had amazing friends and life was just great. All of a sudden I find myself questioning everything and everyone. Who is really my friend? Who is going to be there no matter what? What’s my purpose in life? Who really loves me for me? What real and what’s fake? These thoughts keep hunting me day and night. The road of life has a way of putting turns, opening paths and building walls and bridges that tend to misguide you, which tend to get you of the track. While of the track you find yourself thinking whether to get back on the same path or simply find another way to go. I guess that’s where am at, am at the side of the road thinking, thinking if I should keep going the same path or simply find another way. The same path is comforting, it’s safe cause I’ve already been there and the new path is so scary because I don’t know what to expect maybe a dead end, who knows? In the mean time I’ll keep standing on the side of the road until I can figure things out.

I’m Moving On by Rascal Flatts

marshajorelly — Wed, 22 Jul 2009 16:26:51 +0000

“I’m Moving On” I’ve dealt with my ghosts and I’ve faced all my demons Finally content with a past I regret I’ve found you find strength in your moments of weakness For once I’m at peace with myself I’ve been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long I’m movin’ on I’ve lived in this place and I know all the faces Each one is different but they’re always the same They mean me no harm but it’s time that I face it They’ll never allow me to change But I never dreamed home would end up where I don’t belong I’m movin’ on I’m movin’ on At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me And I know there’s no guarantees, but I’m not alone There comes a time in everyone’s life When all you can see are the years passing by And I have made up my mind that those days are gone I sold what I could and packed what I couldn’t Stopped to fill up on my way out of town I’ve loved like I should but lived like I shouldn’t I had to lose everything to find out Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road I’m movin’ on I’m movin’ on I’m movin’ on