Confession #6
Am so sick, sick inside that is. There aren’t words to describe the kind of emotions am feeling all together. It feels like if one day I was walking on paradise and a second later it all vanished. Am tring to catch my breath but it feels so impossible, its like am being sucked into this dark black hole and there is no way out. No one can hear me just voices in my head disturbing the serenity in me. I can feel the rain pouring on my face and nothing makes the pain go away. All my faith is in the one above, am waiting for him. You see thats diffrence between being physically sick and being sick inside, since its all inside his my only hope. But sometimes he just takes too long and sometimes I wonder if his even listening. 
I totally understand how you feel. I’m sick from the inside out. It’s like my world is coming to an end and I can’t do anything about it. I feel so lost and confuse. I pray to Him hoping He is listening, but I just can’t hear what He’s trying to tell me. I no longer can feel my heart, it’s numb and damage. I’m in a dark room and every minute that passes I get more and more under. My only hope is Him, and I will keep seeking ’till the day I finally hear His voice…
Don’n loose youe Faith. He’s right beside you, you just have to listen very hard and you’ll find HIM…